This past weekend was my beloved O’s wedding in Pennsylvania. Yes, I flew back to the United States for 48 hours just for a wedding in the middle-of-nowhere Amish country. While O and I don’t talk nearly as much as we used to, but when it counted most, he picked up the phone. And for that, I will love him forever. Buying a transatlantic plane ticket for his wedding is the least I can do.
If you had told me 10 years ago, when I first met him, that O and I would become as close as we did, that I would trust him more than almost any other person on the planet, that we would have weekly phone chats that could last hour, I wouldn’t have believed you for a second. O was the weird, somewhat creepy little Mexican guy who whined too much, and I was the condescending bitch who had no tolerance for people disagreeing with me.
But then something happened after we graduated from college. We both moved to new cities to start the next stage of our lives, and we both got lonely. We missed the comfort of having friends living right down the hall or across the quad. Through our loneliness, we tentatively reached out to each other. We cautiously reassured one another that we each enjoyed our weekly chats, that no, the other person wasn’t being too needy. We learned to navigate each other’s quirks and flaws, with the mutual understanding that we’re both quirky and flawed people, an important realization when you’re surrounded by the type of lily-white, salt-of-the-earth people who typically attend our alma mater.
When 3 killed himself, O answered my phone call that early Sunday morning. When O’s dad died, I sent flowers and texted O on holidays and his dad’s birthday. When I got this job, O was one of the first people I told, because I wanted him to know that even a job in Ireland wouldn’t keep me from his wedding.
At the wedding, I got a few snippets of time alone with O. Each time, we gave each other big, long hugs (O always was the best hugger in our group). You don’t really get a lot of time for lengthy, heartfelt conversations with the groom at a wedding, so I think we tried to put a lot into those embraces. Gratitude, trust, the promise that we’ll always be there for each other. Hugs make for great means of communication.
I told O that I love him and want him to be happy, and I’ve never meant it more. The new Mrs. O might not be my favorite friend-spouse in the world, but their wedding was gorgeous, and O deserves nothing less. The weekend, in addition to being hectic and exhausting, was a comforting reminder of how much my friends have given me, and how much bliss I wish for them in return.